To my child

Thank you for always waiting for me so late.

Thank you for always waiting until late.

Thank you for being patient and waiting for me.

Thank you for always waiting for me until I changed my clothes and said, "It's okay.

I want to spoil you as soon as possible.

Thank you for waiting for me when I had a high fever and was talking in my sleep.

Thank you for watching over me while I was hot and sweating.

When I'm feeling down, thank you for changing my mood in front of me.

When I was lonely, thank you for gently licking my hand all night long.

Thank you for learning so many of my words and understanding me when I talk to you.

Thank you for always saying "Woof!　Since I was a little girl, thank you for putting up with my "woof!

I can't think of anything else to say but thank you for being you.

Thank you for loving a mischievous adult like me.

That's why I miss you so much.　I miss my daughter.

いつも遅くまで待っていてくれてありがとう。

海外に仕事に行くと帰国までご飯を食べず

我慢して待っていれてくれてありがとう。

早く甘えたいのに着替えて”良いよ”って言われるまで

待っていてくれてありがとう。

高熱を出し辛くて寝言を言ってるとき

熱いのに汗をかきながら体を寄せて見守ってくれてありがとう。

気持ちが落ちているとき　目の前ではしゃいで気分を変えてくれてありがとう。

寂しかったとき一晩中手を優しくなめ続けてくれてありがとう。

いっぱいおいらの言葉を覚えて、話しかけたら理解してくれてありがとう。

小さなころから”わん！”　って鳴くのを我慢してくれてありがとう。

感謝の言葉しか思い浮かばない　”あなたの存在”にありがとう

おいらみたいなやんちゃな大人を愛してくれてありがとう。

だからこそ寂しいよ。　私の娘を失ったことを。

Lost today. I was ready and I was trying.

I thought things might be better. Just when I was beginning to hope that things might be going in the right direction.

Last night, I held her on my chest for a long time, just like when we were little.

And when I woke up in the morning and called out to her.

When I woke up in the morning and called out to her, she opened her eyes and smiled, saying "good morning" as usual.

I could talk to her. I could smell him and he would sleep peacefully.

She always brought her pre-washed shirts to her bed and slept in them.

It made me happy that he loved my smell so much.

She had been very sick since she was a little girl, and had to undergo a major surgery with her tiny body.

I was so happy that you loved my smell so much.　That's why I was afraid to get in the car with him.

"They'll take me to the hospital." I'm sure that's what it was.

We got a lot of fresh air and frolicked around on the strawberry fields.

I wish I could have had more time like that.

You're my daughter. You're my daughter, and you'll return my unrequited love with more than that.

I don't want you to go away.

There's nothing I can do about it, even if I say I hate it.

It's really lonely to be alone in the house without you waiting for me.

However, I'll always be with you.

That's why my farewell words are

"Have a good day at work. I'll be waiting for you, so work hard and come home early."

Those are the words you've been saying to me every single day.

That's why I'll give you the same words.

Thank you so much for being my family.

I'm going to miss you, but you're going to miss me too.　

I'll try my best to look like I'm not.

It doesn't matter how much time passes, nothing will change.

You're my daughter.

That's why.

"Have a good day at work. I'll be waiting for you, so do your best and come home early."

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　bevi 

今日の失った。覚悟はしてたし頑張っていた。

いい方向に向かうかも？って期待し始めた矢先の出来事

昨夜は長い間胸の上で抱きながら　小さな頃のように

お話しながら寝られたし、朝起きて声をかければ

いつものように”おはよう”って目を開けて笑ってくれた。

話もできた。匂いも嗅いで安心して寝てくれてたし

いつも洗濯前のシャツを自分のベットに持ち込んで寝てた

そんなにとおちゃんの匂いを愛してくれて嬉しかったよ。

小さな頃から大きな病気で大きな手術をほんと小さな体で

耐え抜いてくれた。　だから一緒に車に乗るのが怖かったのは

”病院に連れてかれる”　きっとそうだったんだよな。

いっぱい外の空気も吸って　いちごの畑の上ではしゃぎ回った

そんな時間をもっともっと味わいたかったよ。

お前はおいらの娘だ。無償の愛をそれ以上の愛で返してくれる

お前がいなくなるのは　嫌や。

嫌やと言っても　どうにもならない。

ほんと一人ぼっちで　お前の待っていない家は寂しいよ。

とはいえ、いつも一緒にいる。

だから送り出しの言葉は

”お仕事行ってらっしゃい。待ってるから頑張って早く帰っておいで”

お前が毎日毎日掛けてくれた言葉だな。

だからこそ　同じ言葉をお前に贈ろう。

おいらの家族になってくれてほんとありがと。

寂しいんだけど　お前も寂しがるから　

そんなことないよって顔して頑張る

時間がどんだけたったとしても何も変わらない。

お前はおいらの娘だ

だからこそ

”お仕事行ってらっしゃい。待ってるから頑張って早く帰っておいで”

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　bevi